Let’s take my story back to high school when I struggled with bullying. I always dressed differently and back then, I was so passionate about fashion I would make my own clothes and wear them to school. They were edgy, I still think the things I created were amazing, but in a small town high school in Williamsburg, Virginia, I was too much for the normal kids to handle so obviously, I was a victim to a lot of mean criticism. I stopped dressing how I wanted to and dressed so that I would be accepted. I found that I lost myself and tried to become something I wasn’t, only to find that I still couldn’t get the acceptance I wanted so badly back then. Now I wear whatever my heart desires. Nothing has changed, people still bully me every day especially on social media. I just got thicker skin and learned to love myself.
I had a small group of friends in high school that would get together and just play music almost every day. I had the keyboard, they had guitars, and I was picking up on the guitar. It was really my escape and my happy place to take my mind off the hardship I was facing at school. The music we played was a lot of classic rock-the Doors, Beatles, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Guns N’ Roses-It definitely did not sound like something people who know me today would think I listen to. They are classic pieces with amazing instrumentals so we loved them. FYI: These bands were all broken up before I was born, so please don’t think I’m that old 🙂
I still have that little part of me that’s dark, sensitive, and sometimes sad. I treasure it because it’s a part of who I really am, and I’m at a point where I accept myself, and I know that’s all that matters. I went through some shit but we all did. I might be a weirdo for still listening to music from the 70’s but that’s what makes me happy- listening to it now, it takes me back to the times in high school when I thought I had no where to turn. I thought I would never make it out of that town. I did, and I grew up, and I have more than what I dreamed of back then.
The music reminds me how far I’ve come.
This outfit definitely reflects my dark side- it’s almost like an alter ego! My last 2 outfits were so girly and sweet, so here’s something a little bitter and deep:
COAT: Naked Wardrobe
PANTS: Fashion Nova
BELT: RASVOA Tokyo
HAIR: The LadyCode Shop